Blog post by Kevin Swarbrick

Jennie Bonita               https:amazon.com/Jennie-Bonita-Bed-Time-Stories There are moments in life that split you in two, the person you were before, and the person you’re forced to become after. Losing my fiancée, Jennifer Ann Mason , Jennie Bonita,' after more than eleven years together, was that moment for me. People talk about grief like it’s a process, a journey, a set of stages you move through. But when you lose the person who was your home, your routine, your laughter, your future, your world, your everything, … It isn’t a process. It’s a wound that doesn’t close. It’s waking up every day in a world that doesn’t make sense anymore. Jennie wasn’t just someone I loved. Jennie was the person I built a life with. The person I woke up next to eveyday for over 11 years. The person I protected, supported, and shared every part of my world with, good times and bad, we were there together. For over eleven years, it was us  our home, our rout...

What Family Really Means FaceBook Family isn’t about showing up when it suits you. It isn’t about dipping in and out when the spotlight is on. Family is about being there, every day, every night, every moment, even when nobody sees it, even when nobody claps for it. For me and Jennie, that’s what it always was. People can say what they want, twist things, rewrite timelines, pretend they were present… but the truth doesn’t bend. The truth is lived, in memories. And the truth is this: we were there . Every single day. I grew with those kids. One was barely two, the two twin boys were still tiny at five. I was there through the milestones, the tears, the laughs, the routines, the school days, the school runs with Jennie, the nights when things were tough, the mornings when things needed doing. I didn’t step in for show, I stepped in because that’s what you do when you love someone and their family becomes your family. Jennie was the same. She was 100% committed to her family circ...

                   “The Days and Months: Learning to Live in the Silence without #JennieBonia ”] After writing about the day Jennie passed, I thought maybe putting the words down would help me breathe a little more. It did and didn’t. If anything, it made everything feel even more real. Because the truth is, the days after  1 November 2025  didn’t feel like days at all. They felt like one long, endless moment, a blur of shock, the disbelief, and a silence so loud it swallowed everything and still does to this day. People talk about “The first months” after losing someone,  a love like ours, it’s something you can never measure as time has no meaning. Time didn’t move the way it used to. Morning, afternoon, night, it all blended together into one heavy, aching stretch of hours where I didn’t know what to do, where to stand, or how to exist in a world Jen isn't in it and still don't. I remember walking around the flat, touch...

                                   A Place Lit by Love,                                                                    A Place Lit by Love Jennie’s resting place has become exactly what her life was gentle, warm, and full of light. The flowers, the colours, the way everything glows softly at night… it’s a reflection of the love Jen carried and the love Jen left behind and the love that I hold deeply. Nothing forced. Nothing for show. Just real, quiet beauty. Every piece placed there has meaning that others wont see, but we do. Every light is a reminder that Jens presence didn’t fade, it shifted. Every flower is a moment of love that didn’t end when Jens life did. It’s peaceful. It’s cared for. It’s Jens. And standing there, you...

                                      Jennie’s Story. The Book That Made Jennie so happy.    Jennie’s Story. The Book That Made Jennie so happy,  And The Legacy I’m Carrying Forward no matter what. We wrote Jennie’s Bed Time Story for Jennie, we talked about it, drafted it, then I it did. It made Jen light up in a way I’ll never forget, that moment was unforgettable, Jen went telling the neighbours, telling everyone with that beautiful smile Jen always held. It wasn’t just a book. It was something much deeper… something more personal… something that belonged to Jennie, to us. Jennie survived more than most people ever knew. She carried scars from a past she never deserved from past relationships that she had never told no one else other than me, her soulmate, best friend that Jen trusted me with them things, them stories. Jens fears. Jens memories. Jens dreams. Jens Love. ...

                                                  After writing about the day Jennie passed, I thought maybe putting the words down would help me breathe a little more. It did and didn’t. If anything, it made everything feel even more real. Because the truth is, the days after  1 November 2025  didn’t feel like days at all. They felt like one long, endless moment, a blur of shock, the disbelief, and a silence so loud it swallowed everything and still does to this day. People talk about “The first months” after losing someone,  a love like ours, it’s something you can never measure as time has no meaning. Time didn’t move the way it used to. Morning, afternoon, night, it all blended together into one heavy, aching stretch of hours where I didn’t know what to do, where to stand, or how to exist in a world Jen isn't in it and still don't. I remember wa...

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  The Day My World Stopped: Losing Jennie (1 November 2025) 1 November 2025. A date I’ll never escape. A date that carved itself into me the moment it happened. The day everything I knew, everything I loved, everything I built my life around… stopped. It’s the day I lost my fiancée, my partner, my soulmate, my world, my Jennie. Even now, writing this, I still don’t know how to make sense of it. How do you put into words the moment your entire world collapses? How do you explain the silence, the person you shared your life with? But I need to try. Because keeping it inside feels like trying to hold back a storm with my bare hands. Jennie passed away on 1 November 2025, and nothing has feels real since. For more than 11 years, it was me and Jennie and the Grandkids, our home, our routines, our laughter, our arguments, our stupid jokes, our late‑night chats, our mornings, our nights, our life. We built everything together. We survived things together. We fought battles side by side th...

The Magic of Personalised Storybooks: Bringing Stories to Life Imagine a child turning the pages of a book and seeing their own name woven into the story—embarking on adventures, solving mysteries, or meeting extraordinary characters. Personalised storybooks create a unique reading experience, transforming stories into something deeply personal and memorable. For me, crafting personalized books is about more than just storytelling; it's about creating moments of wonder, sparking imagination, and making every reader feel special. Whether it's a bedtime tale featuring a child's favorite animal or an inspiring adventure starring them as the hero, personalized books have the power to turn reading into a magical experience. Join me as I share my journey in creating these special books—how the idea came to life, the process behind each story, and why personalized makes all the difference in the world of storytelling.                      ...

Introducing Personalized Story Books for All Ages! A New Chapter in Storytelling Have you ever wished for a story that speaks directly to you or your loved ones? Imagine a tale where you are the hero, where your adventures come to life on every page. We are thrilled to announce our new line of personalized story books, crafted for readers of all ages! Why Personalized Story Books? Personalized story books are more than just a unique gift; they are a way to create lasting memories. Whether it's a bedtime story for a child, a romantic tale for a partner, or an inspiring adventure for a friend, our books are designed to resonate personally with each reader. For Every Age Group Children : Spark their imagination with stories where they embark on magical adventures, meet fantastical creatures, and learn valuable lessons. Teens : Engage them with thrilling narratives that reflect their interests and challenges, making reading a more relatable and enjoy...

   News: I've Moved to New Blogs! Hello everyone, I hope this message finds you well. I wanted to share some important news with you. Due to some unforeseen issues with our current site, I have decided to move to a new blog. Our new digital home will offer the same great content, and even more exciting updates! You can now find us at:  New Blog You Tube  My New Channle What you can expect: Continued high-quality content you love Fresh and exciting updates A more secure and seamless browsing experience More blog post New content I truly appreciate your continued support and understanding during this transition. Please update your bookmarks and join me at our new blog. Feel free to share the new link with friends and family who enjoy our content.

                                                 Love Is? In this poem, I explore the idea that love is not just a source of joy, but also a force that can drive us to the brink of despair. It's a reminder that love is not always easy or simple, It's a powerful emotion that can take us on a rollercoaster of highs and lows. Yer, despite its challenges, love remains a fundamental part of the human experience, It's a force that connects us, that makes life worth living, and that ultimately brings us together. Through the lines of this poem, I invite readers to reflect on their own relationships and the the role that love plays in their lives. Whether it's the gentle touch of a partner, the supportive words of a friend, or the unbreakable bond with a family member, love takes many forms, And each form is worth celebrating, even when it's complicated. As we navigate th...

                           The Unknown Earths Last Chance When Mark and his friends decided to have some fun by playing in a dam, they had no idea they were embarking on the most incredible journey of their lives. Every day was a wild and crazy adventure, fighting the dangers that they had to face in a desperate quest to find their parents, but this quest became a desperate battle to save the world and to survive. On their journey, they encountered many different races: lizard people, Bat people, Clones, Snake creatures, Mutants, and much more. Every day they were finding something new and meeting new races, along with some elites; there was nothing they didn’t face on their journey. Mark’s desperate attempt to save his brother and sister from any harm became a battle of survival in a world of darkness. The battle for a one-world galaxy government left many races on different planets wanting to survive. Earth was ...

Embracing your strength in the dark time.  In life's intricate tapestry. there are moments when the shadows loom, and we often find ourselves navigating through the darkest of times. It is during these moments that inner strength is tested. As we collectively face unprecedented changes on a global scale, it is paramount to remember that strength, unity, and hope can illuminate even the darkest of times. Dark times come in various forms, them forms can range from, struggles, global crises, or the convergence of both. It could be the loss of a loved one, financial hardship, health concerns, or the emotional toll of witnessing a world in turmoil. Whatever the circumstances, these moments can be overwhelming, leaving us grappling with fear, uncertainty, and despair and can be very hard to deal with on your own.  As I have learn't from past experiences, be kind on yourself. Focus on your struggles without judgment. Allow time so you can heal, grieve and let it all go, only when wil...

                                                                       Introduction.  Life can be a journey marked by trials, triumphs and transformation. For some, it's a relentless battle to find light in the shadows. To try and to discover beauty in the depths in the pain, and to thrive in the face of adversity. This blog post delves into the profound emotions that surround loss, the enduring strength of the human spirit, and the unique challenges faced by those who've grown up without the love of their parents.  Loss: A Universal Experience  Loss is a universal part of life's experiences. It can manifest in many forms, from the passing of a love one to the dissolution of relationships, the loss of dramas, or the absence of nurturing love in a childhood Each of these forms of loss shapes us, ...

New Books at long last. As my readers know, I only started writing in my thirties, reading and writing wasn't something  I was great at, I reached out to certain people who I thought were friends, only they had different intentions!  There's been that much that has gone on to the point my health came before anything else. When you see others try to steal your hard work and try to put a copy right claim on my work, well those are the kind of people I have been dealing with over many years. I actually watched all this happen including online with the uploads of my Novel's in someone else's name on Amazon! This is clearly someone who has had copies of my work or obtained then some other way! When I first started to write, I gave copies out to many people in order for an honest review all them years ago, I even had my work on an ex's computer that shouldn't be stored on there whatsoever!   There loads going on, but I am taking this as a learning curve, I know my wor...